Journeying

Imagine yourself walking through the forest on a breezy day.  The sun shining, the birds singing, the twigs are snapping underfoot.  You hear the leaves rustle in the trees.  Now try to listen to a solitary leaf as it rustles with the others. Most days I really feel that's how it seems when trying to discover voice of God in a situation.  A still small voice, overwhelmed by the rest of the gods (notice the small "g") in our life.  I have situations in life I have prayed days, weeks, months, and in some instances years for clarity.  Yet, I'm left just as confused, if not more so, than when I started. What or whom in my life do I give power to other than God?  Do I trust Him to work out situations for His glory rather than my own?  Am I following after what I want or after what He wants?  These are questions I struggle with daily in a multitude of situations. I read the Bible. I pray daily.  I've fasted for a period of time in an attempt t...

This has come up in several conversations over the last week so I decided to blog about it.   Yesterday, I wrote a letter to an old friend.    Now I didn't hand write it; it was 1200 words typed.  It felt good and in all honesty I've been trying to compose it for 4 months but could never find the words.   How many of you still send letters?  Real letters through the postal service I mean. Not emails or text messages or video messages but good old fashioned letters.  I do believe it's becoming a lost art. I have a letter from a former employee of my parents who worked for us when I was about 14.  When she retuned to college she wrote me.  I have letters from my mom and grandma from when I worked at camp I have letters from people I camped with, letters from college friends, letters from other friends. Letter writing can be a useful tool.  In college I was sent a letter from a friend who disagreed with a decision myself and some others had...

Anyone who knows me at all will verify the fact that I am not a morning person.  Not even close to a morning person.  I deeply treasure the serenity that evening brings.  The quiet and stillness is breath taking.  It's truly when I feel most energized.  I do recognize the fact that many people feel that same way about morning... I'm just not one of them. Yet, there I was wide awake at 3:45 am.  Now if I'm awake at that time it's usually because I haven't gone to bed yet.  Usually.  I went to bed at 10:30 after a long but productive day yesterday and fell asleep in a relatively quick manner.  So I simply asked "Lord, why am I awake?"  An image came to mind immediately, it was Lulu. In case you don't know me personally I should explain that I live on a dairy farm.  Lulu is a cow.  She's a good sized Brown Swiss that stands in the third stall down from the upper end on the right side of the barn.  And Lulu is due to deliver a...

Good evening!    I've been wanting to write a new blog entry since Wednesday so I apologize for the tardiness.  My hope is to blog once a week. In regards to the goals I mentioned previously- Saving money week two? Check.  Bible reading schedule on track? Check.  Chapter writing?  I haven't written new material but I have changed and edited some previously penned prose.  Song composition? Fail-haven't written a note.  Tough mudder training?  I have lost some weight, but that's not near enough-which leads me to a topic I've been focusing on this week. Emotional Eating I admit it freely-I'm an eater.  Food, glorious food in all it's textures and colors and smells and tastes and sounds is amazing in a word.  In your mind's eye picture a plate of freshly crisped bacon.  Just picture it.   You can't do it can you?   The sense memory you have allows you to smell it, see it, taste it on your tongue, feel the texture of ...

I'm not sure why, but I feel it's time to try this blogging thing again.  I wrote one a few years back, but  felt uncertain anyone but me was reading.  So... I begin anew.      Personally I don't care for new beginnings.  More often I feel it's because new beginnings often mean something previous has ended.  I don't like endings at all.  As January 2014 starts we all focus on our "New Year's Resolutions."  But these are goals we most often never follow through.  I believe as a society we are at a point where we fear accomplishing our goals because then it's over.  The race is run; the dream achieved; the game won.  And when that happens we end up empty.  We forget to forge anew, train for new races, dream bigger dreams, and play a new game.      But like I said, I don't like things being over and finished.  Therefore, it's time to break my comfort zone.  There are things I want to accompli...